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A New Career – A Year of Success

“Living well is the best revenge” – unknown

(Flourish and Prosper) “Sometimes others seek to crush one down, to make nothing out of one’s hopes and dreams, one’s future and one, himself…For whatever reason, efforts to improve oneself, to become happier in life, can become the subject of attacks…If one’s aims in life are worthwhile…if one flourishes and prospers, one certainly will wind up the victor.” – L. Ron Hubbard – The Way to Happiness – 1981

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Scott Gordon – Counselor Class 0+

Today marks one year of doing nothing else professionally, but full-time research and study into spiritual philosophy applied to effective counseling, and actively counseling others for a fair and reasonable rate.

It is what I’ve wanted to do from the moment I finished my copy of Dianetics in 1993.  It is what I’ve studied in the 20 years since, in almost every spare moment, while heroically taking on the responsibility of advancing and defending an organization purportedly established for that very purpose.

The fact that I have come to realize that the modern organizations of L. Ron Hubbard’s Dianetics and Scientology have betrayed that purpose (assisted mainly by the founder, himself), does not change that purpose of my own, in any way.

I am not going to lie and say that I am happy in every way with my current situation (refer to my articles on losing my wife to Hubbard’s enforced disconnection policies), but I do have something here to be very thankful for.

For the first time in my life of so-far 49 years, I am working at something that I truly love to do, and making a decent living doing so.  I work for myself and for my clients.  I help people who have been happy with that help.  And I have time to spend studying and researching improved methods of doing so, which methods also enrich my existence beyond easy description.

First of all, let me say that I could not have done this without my family, friends and like-minded associates who supported me, while I recovered from almost nothing and came from almost nowhere, to do it.  I will not forget that.

But I am proud today that I have achieved things I never dreamed possible, mainly by sticking to my integrity and doing what I knew was right.

As always, some have turned against me because they were not ready to shine truth and honesty in dark places.  And I understand – I recognize I have a very long way to go, myself.

Anyone connected to the corporate ‘church’ of Scientology has willingly turned a blind eye to a lot of suffering and injustice.  It is a long, long process to recover one’s integrity after all that.

It is no use comparing oneself to others.  I have learned that all you can do is to follow your heart where it leads you, stand as firmly as you ought, in your integrity, as it leads you upward to higher spiritual awareness, and compromise only as much as you absolutely need to, in order to maintain the cooperation of those around you that you might otherwise alienate through sheer speed of change.

I am just happy that my dream of professional success has become a living reality.

I have recovered financially to the degree of having fully made up for squandering my teacher retirement on the way to participating in a misguided effort to help an organization “help mankind.”   In fact, I have recovered many times over.

My retirement is secure, my health is fantastic, and my life’s work is a joy.

I cannot honestly say that I “have it all” – but what I can say, is that I am thankful for this fulfillment in establishing my own career at a level that I never imagined could happen in the space of one year.

One year ago today, I started counseling with my first paid client.  Today, he/she, among many other of my clients, is enthused with counseling, independent from religious organizations, and counseling and helping others using similar successful methodologies.

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It is time for a new model.  Religion and science have failed us so many times.  But a movement of spiritually-minded, responsible and helpful people exists whose work is to formulate a healthy balance of ‘Know Thyself’ and helping to actively improve conditions around us.

“Become the change you want to see in others” is the guiding principle.  And any techniques that help others without adversely affecting their self-determinism and dignity in any way, are valid processes to be used in helping each other achieve those goals.

People associated with the Church of Scientology or the alternative Independent Scientology or FreeZone Scientology have nothing to fear from me in the long run, despite some of the “Disconnection” and even “Fair Game” practices, that have continued to come my way from some of the above.  I am going to continue to tell truths – however inconvenient – in as compassionate a way as I can, until all of the dynamics of life and spheres of existence straighten out and start making sense to me and begin to work for the common man who seeks answers.

Just one month before L. Ron Hubbard started pulling down a vital movement into one long, painful process of pulling ‘the shades of night’ on the very technology that hundreds of practitioners worked their hearts out to establish, he wrote these words that I have lived by since the day I read them:

MY PHILOSOPHY (excerpted)

“The study of philosophy is very ancient.  The word means: ‘The love, study or pursuit of wisdom, or of knowledge of things and their causes, whether theoretical or practical.’

All we know of science or of religion comes from philosophy.  It lies behind and above all other knowledge we have or use.

For long regarded as a subject reserved for halls of learning and the intellectual, the subject, to a remarkable degree, has been denied the man in the street.

Surrounded by protective coatings of impenetrable scholarliness, philosophy has been reserved to the privileged few.

The first principle of my own philosophy is that wisdom is meant for anyone who wishes to reach for it.  It is the servant of king and commoner alike, and should never be regarded with awe.

Selfish scholars seldom forgive anyone who seeks to break down the walls of mystery and let the people in…

…Know thyself … and the truth shall set you free…

…We are only concerned with how to show man how he can set himself free.

This of course, is not very popular with those who depend upon the slavery of others for their living or power…

Suppression and oppression are the basic causes of depression.  If you relieve those a person can lift his head, become well, become happy with life…

…I like to help others and count it as my greatest pleasure in life to see a person free himself of the shadows which darken his days.

These shadows look so thick to him and weigh him down so that when he finds they are shadows and that he can see through them, walk through them and be again in the sun, he is enormously delighted…

…So my own philosophy is that one should share what wisdom he has, one should help others to help themselves, and one should keep going despite heavy weather for there is always a calm ahead.  One should also ignore catcalls from the selfish intellectual who cries: ‘Don’t expose the mystery.  Keep it all for ourselves.  the people cannot understand.’

…For I know no man who has any monopoly of wisdom of this universe.  It belongs to those who can use it to help themselves and others.

If things were a little better known and understood, we would all lead happier lives.

And there is a way to know them and there is a way to freedom.

The old must give way to the new, falsehood must become exposed by truth, and truth, though fought, always in the end prevails.”

Re-read if you will, those words carefully, for they were carefully chosen.  It is my intention to take the man at his word (I left out the fibs about his past!), regardless of the betrayal that started soon after, with the penning of “Keeping Scientology Working” – those little increments of force and not-so-little outright lies about ‘source,’ replacing more and more of the ‘Affinity-Reality-Communication’ on which the subject is purportedly based.

And you think I am ‘1.1’?
(inside joke – means a person very hypocritical in actions relating to his words)

Be careful here – I am not asserting I am a “better man” or “smarter” or anything like that.  We are all deeply flawed human beings – probably without exception.   And I know that Hubbard faced real enemies in repressive government operations.  It is anyone’s responsibility to do their due diligence and establish the truth for themselves.  I am just saying that promises have been made, and that they are not superseded by someone’s insane effort to monopolize the subject “for our own good”:

“So anybody that knows the remedy of this subject—anybody that knows these techniques—is himself actually under a certain responsibility; that’s to make sure that he doesn’t remain a sole proprietor. That’s all it takes; just don’t remain a sole proprietor. Don’t ever think that a monopoly of this subject is a safe thing to have. It’s not safe. It’s not safe for man; it’s not safe for this universe.”

L. Ron Hubbard

(from Philadelphia Doctorate Course lecture #20 “Formative State of Scientology, Definition of Logic”, given on 6 Dec 52)

For too long I have endured the cognitive dissonance of the outright denial of this promise to mankind by the church, its misguided parishioners, and now in the “independent” field by those still indoctrinated into blaming everyone but the ‘Master’- who have yet to discover the depth of betrayal we have all been subjected to.

So I remain a permanent ‘Class 0+’ counselor.   It’s all I will ever seek to attain as far as “official” credentials.  Why? Because Class 0 covers the true essence of what makes auditing work.  Because the years it took me to earn this status inside the church gave me all the metering skills needed for any level.  Because I ‘studied ahead,’ with honesty and integrity, earning my status of ‘auditor’ with dozens of successes above my grade, even while ‘in’ the church.  And because I protest the waste of thousands of lives waiting for the “approval” of “authority” to help one another with so many common-sense procedures designed for the purpose.

Auditors are made by auditing, and that’s just the way it is.  Professional integrity grows with results attained, and while training and internship is still recommended as one potential service of great value, it must never again become the only way.

Never misrepresent your level of experience or offer what you are not sure you can deliver, and you will do fine.

So to conclude all this, I am at heart, a philosopher – a lover of wisdom – and it is very rare, historically, to be able to make a living in this field.  I started my new professional career with 20 years of applied study, and a full year of intensive co-processing covering every important basic procedure available, up through the highest graduate level actions.  Now, a year of very satisfied clients has shown me that it can be done.

And now I am available to help you do it, if you happen to share that purpose.

And I thank those who have stayed with me – or even showed a little kindness and help along the way – from the bottom of my heart.

I live amidst a slowly fading tragedy – the loss of my becoming-soul-mate wife of 9 years, and the loss of my religion of 18 years – but despite all that, I can claim and enjoy, a victory here.  One which helps me greatly in the journey to become more and more free – more and more ‘me.’

And that, being a big part of my purpose, makes me happy.

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What Took Apart My Family?

DEDICATED WITH  SINCEREST APOLOGIES TO THE THOUSANDS WHO HAVE SUFFERED THE PAIN OF SEPARATION, BETRAYAL, PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE, DAMAGE – AND EVEN DEATH – BROUGHT ABOUT BY THEIR INVOLVEMENT WITH HUBBARD’S CULT.

It was a sad day in December 2012 when I realized that the founder of my “religion” of 18 years was in reality, the architect of the break-up of my family.  That L. Ron Hubbard himself, was the engineer of the policies we were expected to follow…

I began to write this post in December of 2012, the month that I was in Costa Rica retrieving what was left of my possessions from where I had lived for 8 years, having already sold or got rid of most of what I owned to relocate there in 2004.  I even cashed out my teacher retirement in order to donate money to the church.

I am posting this now – one whole year later – having finally gotten up the courage to do so.  (No one can say that I did not take the time to find the real truth of the matter.)

As an admirer of an effective technology developed under his direction, I was a devoted follower of L. Ron Hubbard for 19 years when I finally had this realization.

Knowing that I could be offending a lot of people who still think as I once did, that Hubbard was a “saint” beyond reproach, I’ve long held my tongue.

No more.

It was a sad day for me in December of 2012 that my wife of 8 years – both of us Scientologists – cut off all communication between us and even with her two sons – even though one was not a Scientologist and wanted to stay in contact with me.  All of them were my family for 7 years – through good times and bad.  It was then that she finally completed the process required of her by the church, known as “DISCONNECTION.”

I had been a volunteer missionary who defended the church there, using my time and at my own expense, with very little compensation ever received.  I spent the prime of my life doing this.

Because I could no longer shut my eyes to the corrupt side of L. Ron Hubbard’s Scientology, I lost everything I had worked for there.

For the past 30 years, Scientology has been run by government-sanctioned mafioso, David Miscavige, a young, ruthless punk, hand-picked by L. Ron Hubbard himself – well before his death in January 1986 – to hire the very best IRS-connected attorneys and re-organize Scientology to “make money… and… make more money,” going through all torturous manifestations of criminal evasion in order to not lose any to the government tax authority – the IRS.  Miscavige was carrying out the orders and advices of his mentor, L. Ron Hubbard, but with his own designs on assuming power and total control of the religion and its followers.

All this was to further the long pattern of religious cloaking which helped to conceal their criminal acts – not only those actions ordered by them against those whom they designated “enemies,” but ongoing criminal acts of inurement (misappropriation of donations) against their own parishioners!

But despite the fact that David Miscavige has taken this criminality sanctioned by “religious doctrine” to new extremes, it was L. Ron Hubbard who designed, implemented and maintained almost every aspect, rule and policy of the religious group/cult known as Scientology as still practiced today.

I lost my family to his cruel, anti-life policy known as “Disconnection.”

Now as I also discovered then in December 2012, at the same time I was losing my family, sometime back in 1983, L. Ron Hubbard wrote a dispatch ordering that ‘Disconnection’ be re-instated as policy for the Scientology religion, knowing full well the trouble it had brought him with governments in the late 1960’s, when he’d officially canceled the policy, and even promised a government in an official letter that:

 “the Board of Directors of the Church of Scientology …have no intention of re-introducing this policy”

and:

“I can see no reason why this policy should ever be re-introduced, as an extensive survey in the English speaking countries found that this practice was not acceptable.” – LRH 

– this is from a letter sent to “The Commission of Enquiry into Scientology in New Zealand” on 26 Mar ’69 by  L. Ron Hubbard.

L. Ron Hubbard LIED!

(Not to mention the “Code of REFORM” from August 1968 that led to the decision of “Cancellation of disconnection as a relief to those suffering from familial suppression.”)

Now, before anyone says that story of the ‘Disconnection’ policy reinstatement is a flimsy basis for targeting the founder of Scientology, Mr. L. Ron Hubbard himself for knowingly and willingly breaking up families – like mine – in order to create and maintain an insular cult that he would financially benefit from, I have something to share that makes any challenge to that ‘Disconnection’ reinstatement story, completely unnecessary.

The fact that is that completely apart from that revelation by former leaders of the church who witnessed that the re-instatement of ‘Disconnection’ came from Hubbard, I had also came to realize in the course of my researches, that Mr. Hubbard himself knowingly and willingly assigned a pregnant woman to the Rehabilitation Project Force, a rather cruel act, and that years earlier he had built his Sea Organization and firmed up his authoritarian command of it by instituting cruel punishments like “overboarding” ministers-in-training, including elderly women trainees, and forcing a man to push a peanut across a ship’s deck with face bleeding and his wife and kids crying – forced to watch in humiliation.

Add to all that multiple reports of assigning a 5-yr-old boy to 5 days and nights in the cold, terrifying chain locker of his Apollo ship.  (Some reports allege more than one child so assigned, with age of child as young as four years of age.)

You see, sometime before this ‘Disconnection’ hit me full force, I took a new look through an L. Ron Hubbard book entitled “Scientology Ethics” and its origins in 1965 Ethics policies, and I finally reached the inevitable conclusion that more and more people alienated from their loved ones by the use of ‘Disconnection,’ are bound to reach:

-That L. Ron Hubbard, himself, genius that he was, by these actions and in a long-term failure to come clean, nevertheless undid a whole lot of the good he had once done for people in developing a highly workable technology for “helping people help each other.”

-That in 1965, he developed policies, rules and restrictions that taken as a whole, virtually guarantee that  people will be attacked unjustly, cruelly denied help in time of greatest need, and covertly guided into disconnecting from their own friends and family, in order to maintain their “good standing” in his church, which was soon to become a paramilitary cult (very little of which policy was ever necessary to protect the actual technology, but instead was crafted to protect the power of the inner clique, hiding criminal activity and even permitting and condoning criminal activity to do so, which activity has plagued the organization ever since).

Tragically, we find that the very first set of processes (now known as the “Power Processes”) that consistently worked on nearly all persons who received them (many processes had been advertised that way, but these were the first that Hubbard recognized actually met people’s expectations enough to sell with confidence) became his first of many gross violations of his representations and promises made to mankind and to Scientologists, in an essay entitled “My Philosophy.”

By keeping these processes from the field and asserting that they were “dangerous” in the hands of those not trained and trusted members of his organization, L. Ron Hubbard squirreled away critical portions of a workable mental and spiritual technology (“Power Processing”) from mankind, in a bid to build and preserve empire and “make money and… make more money.”

He then, in that same year 1965, developed and used cruel, anti-family policies to cover up his own crimes and his greed in squirreling away processes that actually might have accomplished his stated objective of “clearing the planet” (getting the peoples of earth the tools they would need to overcome the effects of traumatic experiences) but that he instead insisted knowingly under false pretenses, must become and remain, “confidential.”

‘Disconnection’ as a practice of Hubbard’s new 1965 version of Scientology, was not just a policy out of one Policy Letter, but was deeply woven with malice aforethought, throughout many fundamental policies and the false technology of “ethics” – including technically unworkable and outright harmful, “PTS” (Potential Trouble Source) restrictions on auditing (counseling therapy).

I well remember playing the endless game as a Public Divisions staffmember, of presenting someone who really, truly needed help in life and was willing to do anything to get it, being turned away because of some Hubbard policy preventing it.  And at the time, I did not even think to question or blame the founder – no, I rationalized it, and participated – though unwillingly – in crimes against the spirit (“When Help Becomes Betrayal“).

And with that realization, the only real ‘Disconnection’ that I am in need of, is from Hubbard’s false, fake “church” which cloaked in religious trappings and protected by religious exemptions, is organizationally set up to utterly ruin its arbitrarily designated “enemies” (like me) that it creates for those exercising the very free speech and free thought promised in its empty and neglected, “Creed of the Church” and in its rarely-displayed 1968 “(Reform) Code of a Scientologist.”

Okay, yes.  L. Ron Hubbard worked long and hard to assemble a technology that can be put to use to help people.  When done in a safe environment away from criminal organizations, it does work wonders.  I am not without appreciation for the hard work – he was not idle or lazy.   I have no doubt that at various times in his life L. Ron Hubbard worked his heart out for a very decent purpose.

And because of that early diligence, thanks to the tremendous effort in getting it explained to students of the new technology, we will continue putting that large portion of workable technology which resulted, into the hands of people who truly want to help.

But the facts cannot be ignored that this same person willingly destroyed these good works by selfishly indulging in abuse of power for personal gain and organizational supremacy.

Sadly, many people continue to believe that a lot of the above-mentioned and ongoing crimes, were and are, okay, because the “tech works” and so “the end justified the means.”

But as far as I am concerned, the L. Ron Hubbard as author and engineer of this anti-family, anti-life policy, and his mafioso replacement David Miscavige, as the usurper agent of a hostile takeover of Hubbard’s de facto mafia, craftily embedded into religious organization, can just keep all of that phony “code of ethics” nonsense copyrighted in platinum forever.

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“‘…if you ever reveal any of this information that I am about to reveal, the consequences will be severe for SCN (Scientology).’

“He then wrote, ‘a person does not blow due [to] Overts or Withholds.  He blows only due to ARC BKs (upsets)’.

“‘However, If any of this information ever became public, I would lose all control of the orgs and eventually Scientology as a whole.’  – (Signed) LRH”

 – reportedly written on a secret dispatch by -L. Ron Hubbard, Commodore ~1974

DEDICATED WITH  SINCEREST APOLOGIES TO THE THOUSANDS WHO HAVE SUFFERED THE PAIN OF SEPARATION, BETRAYAL, PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE, DAMAGE – AND EVEN DEATH – BROUGHT ABOUT BY THEIR INVOLVEMENT WITH HUBBARD’S CULT.

*Grateful acknowledgment to L. Ron Hubbard Library for ineffective prohibition in making these fair use quotes known and published.